Hey look! It’s a post!

Evidently I have a loyal few of you hanging about. I’m a little sad sometimes that I don’t post more often but frankly the things that I can post about are things I probably shouldn’t, like what a shitty time I’ve been having since getting those 10 cavities filled. Who’da thunk? Getting ten cavities fills SUCKS. A LOT. And I’ve been having some pain ever since and some days it’s better than others, but it hasn’t gone away for good yet.

It’s actually gotten to the point where I think I probably should go back to the dentist in the next few weeks, but there’s my other problem. I do have dental insurance, but I still have to pay part of the bills and we are le poor (that’s French for The Poor).

I am a giant stressball about money.   Which really I shouldn’t blog about, because nobody needs to know the details of my personal finances. Suffice to say, I am the type of person who is generally thrifty and likes to hoard away savings like a little rodent of some sort getting ready for the winter. But due to our current economic position, that’s not happening. In fact we pretty much just make enough to pay the bills and go from month-to-month. We almost never eat out or go to non-free things these days. And though I am a generally stress-free person, money is my biggest stress trigger and I had a total meltdown about it this weekend.

But hopefully I will get a decent tax return (please save me the lecture about how that’s not a good thing because it means I overpaid the government. I DO NOT CARE.) and Matt’s dad has also given us some random home furnishings stuff from his old model homes to sell on KSL (local craigslist). So that should help. But I don’t think I’ll really feel at ease until our income situation is more stable.

In the meantime, I had some leftover fabric bought last summer or fall and FINALLY got around to making another skirt (three in as many months). This is the first one I have gotten mostly right on the first try. I did not have to redo the darts. I got the right size on the first try and did not have to add compensatory side panels. The zipper did not go insane and require me to hand sew it. There is a snafu on the lining hem, but nobody sees that so I decided not to care about it.

When I saw this fabric I knew I had to buy it because it reminded me so much of this skirt, which I love, but am much to chubby for these days. And yes, I do still have it in the wildly unrealistic hope that I can someday wear it again. Because that thing will never be out of style.

While the fabric itself is different, the pattern is similar, and I’m quite pleased with the result. I’m going to do the same skirt soon, but in a cream with teal flowers and teal lining.

Also bonus photo of Monster stretching while I was getting situated.

Also now I’m a little depressed at how much my body has changed in almost eight years. Yay poor body image AND money stress. At least I get to see RadioLab perform in Salt Lake tonight because Eve is awesome and invited me to go with her.

Running for office.

Sometimes I think I would really like to get involved in local politics. And then I realize there are way too many blog posts, archived gchat conversations, emails and incriminating photographs out there for me to ever go into government.

Why I do not know how I feel about having kids.

Just go read this. It so perfectly it describes my feelings about having children. Sometimes I think yes, sometimes I think no, other times I think it would be a huge mistake and other other times I think I’d be a rockin’ mom. Basically I don’t know and I have a hard time relating to people who tell me it is THE BEST THING EVVAAAARRRR! And doooo it because you’ll never regret it.

I have never felt that parenthood is a sure thing for me. I’m good with kids but tire quickly of them. And while, clearly, I would love my own more, I still have never known for sure that I am meant to be a mom. I just don’t know and have a hard time buying into the parental enthusiasm train. Am I the only one waffling about to have or not to have? Everyone I know seems to be more asking when they should have kids or how they can have kids (infertility and difficulty conceiving are far more common than I ever knew), but not if they should have kids…

Upside/Downside

Downside: Having to get six cavities filled sucks. A lot.

Upside: My dentist had a TV in his ceiling so I got to watch LA Ink, Ghost Whisperer and Wild Kratts (Which totally took me back to my childhood. Anyone else love Kratts’ Creatures?) totally guilt free.

Downside: I have to get four more filled. Yes. I had 10 total cavities. Yes, I have now talked to my dentist brother about changes I can make in my diet to avoid more cavities, because I already brush, floss and use mouthwash every day.

Upside: More guilt-free crappy TV!

If I have any readers left…

It is the annual delurking! (As seen here, here and here.)

If you read and never comment or if you read and frequently comment — either way! — leave a comment or question (remember this is the time of year where I will answer honestly any question asked), and I promise that I’m not tracking IP addresses if you want to remain anonymous.

Sewing-a-go-go

I’ve had this idea and the fabric for several months now, but wasn’t sure exactly how to execute it. While I normally do trial and error, there wasn’t a whole lot of room for error in this. But luckily, despite a few tricky bits, it turned out better than expected!

So here it is: one part old Matt’s shirt, one part wide elastic, one part navy fabric, one night.

It turned out so well, I think I will do a similar one in white/tan/black.

How to survive without a husband.

Matt is in California on business right now, which means I’ve been fending for myself food-wise. I called my mom tonight with a cooking question.

Mom: So if Matt’s in California, what have you been eating?

Me: I don’t want to tell you because you’ll be horrified.

Mom: …

Me: Taquitos.

Dad: What?

Me: Frozen taquitos. But in my defense, I’ve been sick, so I haven’t been eating nearly as much as I normally do!

Mom: *eyeroll audible over the phone*

Fluffers

Me: OMIGOD there was this kid at the building where I interviewed this guy today with the fluffiest puppy ever and I was like, “Can I pet your puppy?” and he was like, “Yes.” and I was like SHNORGLE SHNORGLE SHNORGLE!

Matt: I don’t even know what shnorgle means.

Me: That’s too bad. Because I do it to you all the time. When you’re asleep.

Linksomania

More links! Quite a bit longer than normal. Just what you wanted, I know.

1. Songs in my head: Lisztomania by Phoenix and Away from You by Oberhofer.

2. The Candidate Match Game. Rate your stance on particular issues and how important those issues are to you and see how closely you align with various candidates. I got 48 percent Obama, 38 percent Huntsman and 30 percent Paul.

3. Hilarious drawings of T-Rex trying to do various things. Thanks to Miranda for showing it to me.

4. Captioned animal pics making me giggle. Smoking and towel.

5. A story about an unusual family where a wife and her husband continue caring for her ex-husband.

6. An argument for piracy as part of the digital ecosystem.

7. A beautiful video about what happens in bookstores at night.

8. Who knew orchids were such a big deal? Not me.

9. People who thought Apple was somehow a more ethical source of electronics got a brutal awakening in the article NY Times just published about the company and their labor and manufacturing issues. This American Life did a similar episode, but the economist they interview in the second half makes the argument that sweatshops are ultimately a net gain for the places in which they are located.

10. I ran across a link to this post on someone else’s blog and it really resonates with me in terms of someone I once dated and my perspective of what a friend recently went through. It’s a long post (so a long excerpt) but so worth the full read.

He’d made it very clear from the beginning that he didn’t want a girlfriend.

“No titles,” he’d said. And I’d agreed.

And we hung out, messed around, went out on dates, exchanged gifts, he met my parents. But he’d been clear. No titles.

Clear as mud.

When a man says he does not want to be in a relationship with you, he never will.

The end.

When a man says he does not want to be in a relationship with you, he never will.

I know no one wants to hear it. I know life changes. Circumstances change. People change their minds.

He won’t.

I’m trying to save you some time, here.

He won’t.

Oh. He might change his mind about being in a relationship. Being with you and experiencing the creature comforts of boo-hood might certainly whet his palate in terms of being properly loved and cared for by a woman.

That woman just won’t be you.

He likes sleeping with you, doesn’t he? He likes hanging around you, doesn’t he? He likes it when you cook for him, fold his drawes, and pick up brews for he and his trifling friends, doesn’t he?

That’s RELATIONSHIP SHIT.

AND HE LOOOOOOOOOOOOVES it.

What he DOESN’T love is being accountable to you. He doesn’t love being a conservator of your feelings and emotions; taking them into account and letting them influence his course of action. He doesn’t love having to come home only to you without the freedom of flirting with or sleeping with other broads.

We all know that men in a no-title relationship BEHAVE the same way as men in titled relationships.

And these behaviors are what lead us to believe that change is possible; that they are warming to the idea of being with us.

They’re not, though.

They’re enjoying the moment. They’re enjoying the benefits of the boyfriend experience while remaining indemnified against poor-boyfriend liability.

11. Now for some lightheartedness after an intense one: Skyrim 2012. I am loving Skyrim, and anyone that is also into it will crack up at this.

12. On to more tough things. An article about Buddhists in Sri Lanka going militant.

13. A beautiful story and photo set about the Lovings, the couple that broke barriers in interracial marriage.

14. This case over the legality of GPS and various electronic tracking methods is super interesting to me. Something about the way privacy and other rights will unfold during the information age is fascinating to me.

15. Colbert’s SuperPAC video is hilarious. I am definitely a Jon Stewart fan most of the time, but this is just funny.

If Mitt Romney really believes corporations are people, then Mitt Romney is a serial killer.

16. A great story about school and busing and rural areas. My friend suggested that districts think about paying a teacher or someone extra to do the route might be a solution.

17. Audio of LDS Elder Marlin Jensen taking questions in a class at Utah State University. (If any readers have a chance to take a religious studies class from Prof. Phil Barlow at USU, you should do it. Now.) The full clip is well worth your time.

‘Has the church seen the effects of Google on membership? It seems like the people who I talk to about church history are people who find out and leave quickly. Is the church aware of that problem? What about the people who are already leaving in droves?’

‘The 15 men really do know, and they really care. And they realize that maybe since Kirtland, we never have had a period of, I’ll call it apostasy, like we’re having right now; largely over these issues.’

To me it’s a big deal that an LDS leader is acknowledging that many people are leaving for reasons other than “wanting to sin” as has been the implication by some.

18. An interesting piece from HuffPo about Anonymous and the fight over who will control the Internet. Part 2 wasn’t available when I wrote this, but it should be up soon.

19. I just finished this book about the economic collapse and boy-howdy if you want to be furious at the upper echelons of the government and the financial industry, read it too. I felt like it was apolitical in the sense that it criticized or praised those involved regardless of political party and probably came off slightly in favor of Republican.

Getting all crafty.

I have been working on a skirt. But being sometimes careless, I neglected to retake my measurements before cutting fabric and sewing the initial seams and putting the zipper in. It was too small. At that  point I was ready to give up and scrap this beautiful fabric I’d bought. Until Miranda, the amazing person who made my wedding dress, offered the suggestion of adding a panel or some ruffles. Because of the sewing machine being a pain in the ass and refusing to properly sew when I was doing the zipper, I had to hand sew it in and was not about to take it out for anything. Which means I was left with only one side to unpick and add something on.

Way too many ruffles later, I had a side panel. Unfortunately now the darts were off and I had to redo two of them. One dart is still off but I decided to hell with it. And my skirt is finally done! Huzzah!

I know it’s not as good as it would have been what with the doing and the undoing and the redoing, but it still turned out pretty cute.

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